heekmah in her habitat.

Such an aggressive title. But if you paid RM17 for it (thankfully I bought in discounted price through their mobile app) and you love mushroom and cheese - you'd probably feel the same as me. 

I think this is something we consider to be a part of adulting. What used to be your whole life became something so distance to you. 

Not. I am not complaining. My 25th birthday cake.

@ Desaru Beach This is not the first time definitely, where I try to lessen my social media usage. At the moment, I am not using my personal Instagram account to upload or update anything. I don't have the app installed and if I can't fight the urge, I log in to the mobile web Instagram browser to view some stories, a page of posts and I'm done (but later on I would go on Pinterest and scroll for relevant contents). Would it be too over the top if I say that, when I upload something on my IG or update a story, I get anxious on who would like and who would view it? I don't like the feeling. At all.  I dislike having the urge of wondering if people care. Thus, probably why I come back to this blog once in a while. Because I don't know who my audience is, so I'm not bothered and is at peace writing or posting what I want. Oh, I have been struggling with choosing the best Blogger template for this blog. I wanted it to be more personal and non-pr...

Halu. Semester 3 has started so I'm back in Kuching! I was lucky enough to catch JinnyBoyTV's JinnyBoy and Reuben Kang at Vivacity Megamall last 2 weeks. They were here to promote their first feature film - By My Side, with the casts of the film. Brandon Ho (Ben), Adam Shamil, Josephine Yap and Arwind Kumar. They are all highly notable YouTubers so it was an exciting time indeed. Most of the people there were teenagers - and then there was me, this fella nearing the quarter age. I wasn't there alone for sure as my coursemates also wanted to meet them eye to eye. But yeah, we were drowned by the screams of the much younger crowd. Reminds me very much of my old days of Kpop fangirling. O h m y g o d! Tonton.my gave out like a bunch of tickets to the 9pm show and also some goodie bag. There were a bunch of activities on the stage to win those goods and I was like - damn kids these days. In a good way lah okay. But again, I feel old. Cri.

This was originally written on my Wordpress, but since I'm migrating back to this blog (uh huh), I will post it here, with updated content. - - - - - Following your guts always come with the question “do you regret it?”. Up till today, I still ask myself this. To be very honest, yes, I do have some regrets. Now, this was written only for the purpose of informing to those who are having this thought, on whether they should go forward with the decision or not. And also to tell that quitting school or getting expelled doesn't mean you won't have any future. What I Did Uncommon in our family, I decided to quit school halfway, where I have about 1 year left to graduate out of the total 5 years. Thinking again, it was around this time (February) in 2010. At the time I had anxiety which led me to depression (I’m better now) so I just followed my guts and do what I thought was the best at the time. kitty kitty

I'm typing this on June 26th 2012  but will only publish it when SPM result comes out. I'm writing this as I didn't see anyone publishing anything like this in the internet. And Norfy also asked me to write my experience IDEK if she still remembers it LMAO. Hopefully this will be useful for people who are repeating their languages paper/SPMU or fresh new candidates. 18th June - Bahasa Malaysia On the day I woke up quite early. Went to SMK Kidurong at about 7:30am That's the only school where private candidates can sit for SPM and also for their ULKCP (if eligible) in my town. ULKCP is ujian lisan khas calon persendirian or oral test for SPM's private candidates. These private candidates can be people who are taking SPM for the first time or took it before but doing it again to get better marks. Okay so I arrived at SMK Kidurong. I was so o_o because I've never been to the school. Some more it looks like apartment? Hahah. Wrote my name at the securi...

Most want to continue to higher level by getting into university. Some just wanna work and earn experience by themselves. Nothing is wrong. Everyone deserves to do what they want in life. No one made a rule that everyone MUST go to college after finishing school. It's just that its a usual thing for people to go to college after graduating that people think they have to do it to fit in. If you like it, why not. If you don't think your brain can take anymore studying then just work or do business. We're fortunate to have a good economy and opportunities to work where/what we want or do the kind of business that we want. What is wrong though, is not contributing to your surrounding. If you doesn't plan to continue studying then get your butt off your couch and find a job or whatever to have an income so you won't be a burden to anyone. As for me, by looking at the situation now, I'll do it slowly.

Bismillahirahmanirahim Two thousand thirteen I want a 2nd job, I want to sell things by the roadside, I want to cycle to other places other than my usual ones, I want to find new friends, I want to be a better servant for Him, I want to be a better daughter for my parents, I want.... to achieve lots of things. There is something else I want, but its something I'm not good at. Keeping my friends. ^_T I think in two thousand thirteen I won't be too involved in Korean pop. I think that phase is over for me. I only listen to groups I know only these days. Ask me a rookie idol name in Music Bank and I will give you o-o face. Plus I found something else that I will do until I die. And I think its time to do other things other than spazzing on the internet. XD Neway.. 2012 was okay. First half of the year was something I want to forget except trips and SS4SG, 2nd half is when I find myself calm the most, until the last month. Its good that this year I finally took pictures wit...

Okay, so this post is made for Norfy. 8) Actually most Sarawak words (that I know of) are based on BM. Just that they’re a bit different lah, pronounciation and spelling wise, sometimes even the meaning can be different. Most of the time you can spot BM words on a BS (bahasa Sarawak) sentence, because Sarawak pipurr also use BM mostly. Just that it’s heavily accented. Norfy, you listen to Matahari right, just read the lyrics and see below XD And analyse and compare. Examples of some BS words and the meaning in BM, based on Matahari lyrics from KnowNo. Because there are seriously too many words, that I don't know which words to use as examples x_x Melupak = melupakan Nak/nok = yang (example: Nok comel ya.) Nak = kan (example: Betul nak?) Mpun/empun = punya Kenak = kenapa Pat = dapat Sik ada/sikda = tidak ada/takda Tauk = tahu Bingong = bingung Mun = kalau Tak (short form of kitak) = awak Sigek = satu Mintak = minta Nutup = menutup Melok= memeluk Mek (short form ...

Salad with thousand island dressing and fried oyster mushroom ;; The thousand island dressing are the ones they sell at the supermarkets. I'm lazy to make them myself lol. To fry the oyster mushroom just dip it in whisked eggs then dip it in Kentucky flour then fry them. They're zoooo delicious T_T Fettucine Creamy Carbonara without beef bacon. Couldn't find them here T_T So I just use normal thin sliced beef. Good enough for me ;_; AND MY IPOD SCREEN GOT PROBLEM OMG CREYS. T_T The home button were just recently fixed and now this. I totally lost hope in Apple products. Dumb expensive thing that couldn't last more than 1 year without any problem. Though it could just be my iPod but T_T I took care of it carefully. It only starts being like this after I let the battery drain for 5+ days. It usually became normal after I 'slide' it but not this time. The touchscreen are still responsive though. I tried restoring it which ended up with me losing all...

My iPod home button is finally fixed ;A; All these time I used the assistive touch thing in ios 5 so I couldn't really take screen cap and all that stuff.. Now I can 8D The fixer(?) said to not break the button again though, or it won't work completely. ;A; Okay~ Screencap of the me2day feed above is to show that I can take screencap LOL

So I woke up from my nap... then went to the kitchen to eat something (forever fat). At the same time my grandpa came back from our shop. Then he told me there's a letter for me from Koreaㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ I immediately know it's from 트윙클 영자님! I entered this event in Woosiq fancafe when Rooftop Prince ended. I, at the time, totally didn't know I could win something from it. I just thought it was just sending message event lol T_T_T_T But then I won a printed picture of Woosiq *_* The master even paid for the shipping *_* My luck is so good with Woosiq (contrary to the other 2 celebs I stan v_v) T_T_T And so.. I arrived at our shop for my shift.. AND THEN I SAW IT.. the yellow envelope *_* It says "From: Chi San in Joseon" HAHAHA T_T See how it was sent on 4th June. It took long to arrive ToT but worth it 8D The back. LOLOL the stickers ;A; CHOI WOOOSIQQQQQQQ hahahhaha he is so cute *~*  The picture is from the episode where they first cut th...

I got this yesterday. T_T Thank you. But now my laptop cannot charge as I haven't open it for 1 month or so OTL So the (expensive) charger are only used as a power source ;A; For a second I thought "ah maybe I should buy a new laptop next year". Then suddenly I thought... what if the laptop knows what I feel and feel sad and stops trying to work correctly. The thing doesn't work only for 1 month or so but I'm considering replacing it even though it has been with me for 4 years. ;__; So maybe I'll just use it until it dies. LOL I know its so weird to have an emotional attachment to your laptop. HAHAHAHA okay to be honest I'm very sleepy.

So few days ago I went on Neulpum and ran across this article about Woosiq will be in a news site Twitter account, answering questions from fans for 30 minutes.. 멍~~ I was in a Twitter hiatus so................ LOL ~_~ But in the end I decided to use one of my username reserve account. You know those account you made to reserve a username 8Db The session was only 30 minutes so I didn't hesitate at all lmao T_T Sent him like a bunch of questions but he replied my first question (which he replied like 20 minutes later) HEOL~ I'm happy.........!!!!!!! And today is f(x) comeback stage OMG 2 HOURS MORE ;A; T_T ps: Didn't I said I should offline more hah aha ha ahah ahwha hioflkdbvkj :/

다 외국인ㅋㅋ Today f(x) changed their website to a new one. I was actually :Q_ing at the new website design. It has much more info and more suitable for a long term use than their previous heavily-based-on-flash design ToT And today I just discovered that Korean keyboard are actually available on this pc :00 So I'm diligently using it now LOL.. The key arrangement are different from Mac one so I'm trying to get familiar with Windows one T_T Though I don't know if it'll be useful in the future lol ;; With f(x) comeback I've been too active.. not good. Must limit self ㅎㅅㅎ SuJu comeback is coming soon too.. I'm sure its after f(x)'s comeback ;_; 낼부터 그만해야지ㅜㅜ

On 2009 and last year, I made a blog post of what I want but impossible to get (at the time when I wrote it lol) So I had a thought, why not read it again and see what I've achieved and if there's something that doesn't matter anymore. Written on November 12 2009. 1. Samsung Corby - THIS........ definitely doesn't matter anymore LMAO 2. Apple iMac 27" - WHY THE HELL did I want one lmao but okay, dreaming doesn't hurt. 3. Apple iPod Touch 32gb [achieved] - Bought a 4th Gen iPod Touch last year but not 32gb. Faithfully using it right now :3 4. Hidel's Twin Zipper Wallet - LOL..To be honest my taste in wallet design changed so...... TvT)/ 5. Hidel's Choo Choo Vocab Book - Its like a note with cute cat drawings (uljdkbc) and made especially for vocabularies. I probably still want one, but not an overpriced ones hahah! 6. Heelda Shoes - I still want those. 7. BSX Beyond 9 hoodies - I still want them *GETS JUDGED* 8. Standing ticket t...

So.. I'm reading this interview of Woosiq.. http://sports.khan.co.kr/news/sk_index.html?cat=view&art_id=201206061808123&sec_id=540101&pt=nv And then I found out : 1. Woosiq auditioned for Dream High (I like the drama), passed the selection round, packed his bag and fly to Korea from Canada within 6 days. Imagine that, he was even a college student in Canada. 2. In high school, he was active in a jazz club and knows how to play saxophone, trombone and other musical instruments. 3. He wants to do web episode drama (ok I don't really know what this is LOL) I suddenly had a thought, what if he joins High Kick 4? ;A; *looks at non-existent free space in external hard disk*  ............... Okay now let's talk about me LOL ERMZ.... I had a fever. And currently jailing myself from my personal Twitter accounts until I finish what I supposed to finish 2 months ago (I gave myself enough break and distraction already LOL). BUT f(x) JUST HAVE TO MAKE COMEBAC...

I don't have anything to say but feels like posting so here's a Chisan picture..... L O L 

Last 2nd January we went to Sungai Asap near Bakun Hydroelectric dam. It was a sudden decision actually and I had lack of sleep on the day as well as bad allergic reaction. OTLLLLLLLLLLLLL I still remember 10-years-old Valerie asked me "Why are your eyes purple, did you got punched?" HEOOLLINGG TAT But yea, it was a long journey. Actually I was excited to go to see Bakun dam. Cos based on what I heard the river has became such a big lake, and native's people houses had to be made float-able by removing the house's "legs". Except the water are smelly LOL I also wanted to see the first hole thingy, cos if the 2nd hole got opened, the road will be totally covered with water ;_; Which means, "never gunna able to see/go inside Bakun dam" SADLY it was public holiday, so we can't see the hole and there were other plans at Sungai Asap Kenyah's longhouses. We ended up spending 4-5 (I think, didn't look at the clock) hours there LOL! So we en...